This is not another form of desperation that i try to compile in one list. This is just something that happened during my holiday and literally made me cry. Holiday and crying, not a good combination i admit. But still, it does happened in my holiday.
So lets start the list shall we ?
1. My first fight with my bf.
Same stupid thing. We always fight about "when will u come to my house?!".
We should make a song about it. It is really pissed me off.
2. Process of CLEANING THE MUD(private theory. can't tell u)
it's never gonna be easy. Plus, if you are in PMS situation, it's even harder.
sometimes what we want it's not always what we need. And to accept that concept,
some people tend to get hurt, just like me. I did cry. But i did deal with the pain instead of denied it. I believe that this will worth at the end. Even until now, i still experience the breaking down.
3. JW marriot-Ritz Carlton bomb tragedy.
I just woke up when i saw there is one message from my dad said
"There is two explosion this morning at 6.45am in Jw marriot and Ritz carlton Kuningan, Jakarta"
I was completely blur. It is for real? Another bomb inside one of the most secure hotel in Jakarta? Then i turned on the tv and yes.... everything is about the damn explosion.
There is this one old guy named Mc Cay, president of Holcim company. I still saw him on tv covered with blood but he still alive. People run him to the hospital, but it was too late.
By the time he reach there, he's gone. I feel so devastated, and starts to cry. He's old and weak,
why he have to die like that. Imagine how if that is our dad or grandfather? How sad and angry we gonna be.
This bomber is an idiot who use God as an excuse to kill each other. They sacrifice innocent people for what they called "JIHAD". Jihad my ass!
Jihad it is not to kill innocent people and destroy yet put shame in your own country and religion. I hope God torture them in hell. Ow yeah. They will rotten in hell for sure.
i pray for my self and for all of people that still have a crying list,
may GOD release their pain, give courage to move on from traumatic situation
and erase their crying list.
amien.
