Autumn Good bye

I never promise You
a
Happy Ending

Model : Syatra Aulia

morning mourn.

it is already 5.38am in the morning and Sushi the laptop still seating nicely on my lap while im typing this USUAL absurd post to my blog. Well, what know? hmm.... yeah, there is something buzzing around my mind lately. I AM MISSING SOME(?) yeah, that question mark shows that i couldn't decide whether is a THING or is a BODY or maybe both. This whole week, i felt a big part of me searching for an answer. If it somebody maybe it's not just SOME, it could be more than one body that i missed. If it's a thing, i might lost tons of things. I felt some people change and others start to fade out from my life. And it's hurt to know that you realize it but can't do much about it. I know that people change, we cannot say DON'T if they are willing to. But yeah, to be honest, when people start to change into something that (in your perspective) is negative, you will somehow hurts because of that even when they think it's positive for them. And that's what i feel right now. deep inside, i want everything just like before. I want whatever change right now, please be like what is supposed to be. and if it's not, dear God... You know what best for me,them and the entire human race. i pray for what is best in Your eyes and cherish for what i have right now.

16 April | Good bye fake id

Bday present from Archy

"happy bday Wonder Woman" tee-hee... xp

Another Aprilian! LOL.

Blow the candle oldie.

at last i became 21 this April. I am officially LEGAL! yeay! No fake id needed for any "club thingy" situation. I was happy because my bunch set a wonderful surprise for me
with a delicious "LOW FAT" cake from Secret Recipe (i know this is sounds a bit freak).
It is actually a bit weird turned into 21 and haven't done any significant thing in life.
I felt a bit waste, because when i was 17 i always thought in this age i already turn into BIG.
I mean not BIG as in FAT, because that one is hundred percent accomplish, but BIG as in success or being somebody.
So in this graceful age, i wish i could be a better person in every aspect in life....

you rather be a mystery

"Something hidden it is more interesting than what obvious" -scorpio motto


Well,i am not a Scorpio , but i did fall in love with this motto.
it doesn't mean that Aries don't have a motto as cool as Scorpio's.
We do have it, and it's sounds like this;

"Ready,fire, AIM!"

really straight forward and sounds growling.
But however, i still have a huge crush with scorpio's.
I don't know, maybe bcoz it is just fits my current situation, and somehow i found that is a very sexy quote. xp

and for u my dear. Since you act like a WHORE lately.
You rather be a mystery. I like it that way.

the sign.

it is not like i tried to act like a superstitious freak or whatever. But this whole week i've felt really paranoid, cause every time i get out the house to go to campus or even just to buy drinks at the market, the same coincidence happened ; i always wear BLACK -start from head to toe.
Black shirt, black skirt/jeans, black necklace, black bag, black purse, and no other colors involved. The first three days i don't really take this thing serious. I don't wanna be all hyperbolic with this kind of BLACK coincidence thing. But the 'THING' is continued to happen, i (accidentally) kept go for black color when i pick something to wear. And the day 7 i start to freaked out. I told my friend that i need something to wear other than black. I told her that I don't want this coincidence 'speaks' for something else or sign for any bad things. You know, that kind of black-cat-means-bad luck or a myth that says when you see crow at unusual place or time, means someone is dying.
So this black thingy coincidence start to made me really paranoid. I kept calling my family back home, asked whether they all alrite. I nudge the whole friends contacts in my msn, make sure that they'll fine.

Yesterday, i go to Bukit Bintang with Ghea and Ila. I felt quite relief since that is the first day i didn't bump into 'BLACK'. I wear all blue and happy. Only my bag is 'gloomy' as usual.
So we went for shopping and met my friends (Miftah and Doko) at Turkey ice cream, then we go to watch this lame Alien movie called Race to WITCH mountain. Everything seems pretty normal. We also planned to visit Aya at the Hospital cause she have to do a Tonsil Surgery (operasi amandel). After we dropped Miftah and Doko at Casa, we went back.
Suddenly, near cyberjaya road, we saw an accident that we predict just happened a minute before we reach cyber. There is this 3 cars (white waja, Kancil, and satria) crashed to one and another. The white car is in the middle of the road, the 2 other car bang the side of the road.
What convince us that the accident is still fresh is because no one accept one or two guy(and we bet they are the victim too) is trying to help them. Not even a police.
"I think they still shocked cause the accident it's just happen. Hope it is not someone we know."
thats what i said while we passing the accident.
Suddenly, just before i got into my house to grab some stuff (i slept over at ghea's house), my cellphone rings. It is archy on the line, and the next thing we know is one of the car that we saw just know, it is our friends car. And the car engine is burned.
We was shocked, because the minute we saw the accident, there is no flame. And what shocked as more is that one of our friend is found bleed on the road. After hear the news, we go straight to that place, but the ambulans already took them to the hospital. So we go straight to that hospital. When we reach there, no body allowed to enter the emergency room. Some of them told us that he bleeds a lot especially on the head area. So from 1am we wait until 5am to make sure he passed the crisis. And God answer our pray, at 5am the doctor said he is passed his crisis without coma. So after a while, we went back.

Not try to be all dramatic or hyperbolic, but to be honest i do relate the BLACK coincidence to this tragedy. I do believe with signs.

Sluurpy!

just a fun project with my friends ghea!

we are so bored and got a wicked idea to made a video clip!
me and ghea try to dig our itunes playlist and end-up picked this song from REGINA (a band from Finland)because it is quite catchy...


so enjoy.... xp

Bingkai Photography Exhibition

At last!!! after a month we sweat and drawn our self into massive stress,
finally the exhibition is come true!
This exhibition held by Indonesian photography club in my university called Bingkai.
Me and my friends Hakim is in charge for this exhibition.
We have to collect 2009 photos about Indonesia from 30 exhibitors. Each exhibitor have to submit 64 photo in A0 format and 2 photos in 20R format. So u can imagine how stress we are.
ow, and since we can't get 30 exhibitors, i have to give 66x2 photos to fulfill the amount that we've decide earlier.

thank God, last friday (31 March 2009-3 April 2009) we officially open our photography club
and the exhibition run pretty well.
We are so excited and happy about it. All the stress is so worth it!

so lets sneak peaking the event!
ta-daaaaaaaaa!

my 20R master piece.

model : mahda kemala
thanks for sacrificed your face for my artwork dear!

"if you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better
seek another flag. I am proud to be red and white not because
it is great but because it is my own"
i guess that is the theme for my exhibition.